She is perfect everyone. I just want to wrap up in her arms in bed. Just. Uhh. I dont understand.
I remember at some captured point in my life I used to hate the ticking of clocks. I remember taking the clock down in my room because it used to make me want to pull my hair out as i banged my head against the wall. Now I wear a watch on my left wrist. A watch to keep an eye out for time while I am in the military. The ticking no longer bothers me. It is now just the beginning of my time. I hear every distinguished tick this watch makes. If only I could read every deatil of my life.
20 Days until I am sent to Virginia for more A School. Its an army base though. I dont know how different it will be compared to the Navy base where I am currently located.
Theres this girl. I met her in bootcamp. She always tickled my curiousity for some reason. Her personality and her smile was well is perfect. I was talking to someone about it and mentioned that the girl should be a princess. I got told how she had a girlfriend. Soo I finally understood the girls personality. Also understood that I dont have to be a guy to have a chance lol. I havent expressed this to anyone really because I typically am all about males so im confused I guess. Who knows. The girls perfect. I dont know. Im not like serious about it. I dont know. Im lost. Im okay being lost lol. But last night we were texting and it was so confusing because she sent me winking and kissy emojis. But that could just be on a friendly level. Lol. She woke me up this morning. “Morning 😍” then I was still asleep so she called me to wake me up and asked me to hangout with her and all the other sailors. I went. Nothing unusual I guess. She did that arm thing on the ride back but I think she was just getting comfortable lmfao. I really dont know. Told me that I am adorable and then at some point mentioned my butt looks nice in my trousers. She sent me pictures I told her I liked on her phone. We went back to our ships and not even 20 minutes later, she texted me. Conclusion. Im lost. Im free. Its okay. Its okay to be lost and free right now.